Always and Forever.

I asked to see Him.
And all He said was, "Look into the sunset for my smile."

I begged to feel Him.
And all He said was, "Notice the light breeze when you're walking alone."

I longed to touch Him.
And all He said was, "Put you're hand on your heart and you'll be close enough."

I wanted to have His comfort as I cry.
And all He said was, "What do you think the rain is? I'm crying with you."

I wished to hear Him.
And all He said was, "Listen to the leaves rustling in the wind and there's my whisper."

I hoped to be called His own.
And all He said was, "Always and forever."

Looking forward and not turning back.

There's so much to say.
Yet there's a deafening silence between us.
Despite actions that need to be taken.
Empty efforts make up your willingness to make things better.

I'm living off hope to escape this downhill fall.
I'm looking towards the future when I'll have nothing to hold me back.
I built a wall within myself for protection from personal attacks.
And soon, it'll be able to crumble to the ground.

But until that day I'm gripping anything that is in my reach.
To just keep moving forward despite things pulling me back.
My eyes are focusing on the prize.
The prize of starting new and finding ability to heal.

So do what you want to bring me down.
And say what makes you feel big.
But I'm done with letting you get to me.
Cause I'm concentrating on my future moments to shine.

So enjoy the outcome of your choices.
And I'll have fun with mine too.

Short and sweet.

My new favorite saying: A woman's heart should be so lost in God, that a man needs to seek him in order to find her.

Making a rainbow, by changing the angle of the light on a rainstorm.

Perspective changes as we change our relation to something. And my perspective is really changing on what is important for my life. It's no longer just having happiness given to me, but finding and making my own happiness out of any situation. It's dancing to anything, whenever I can. It's living in the moments when all I can do is smile. It's laughing at stories that never get old. It's blasting music and singing along. It's having people in my life like my sister, who is also my best friend. Not being near her, leads me to hold on even tighter to her because I don't want the chance of losing her. The understanding we have is something I can't trade. She's someone I will appreciate the rest of my life. So with her, having the perspective of distance, causes me to make her the closest person in my life. Love you sis.

As perspective changes, goals change. And despite the fact you can't change where you've been, you can change where you're going. So find the important things in your life that make you happy, and live off of them.

Asking for what He has always offered.

At this point God, theres nothing left for me to do but to ask:
Please mend my tears and breaks.
Eliminate my doubts and worries.
Lessen my fears and anxiety.
Complete my faith and trust in You.
Fulfill my emptiness and give me peace.
Rescue me when I feel lost.
Comfort me when I feel alone.
Tightly hold my reigns so I won't run too far.
Lead me to make my heart a devoted home for you, rather than just a house.
Guide my eyes to always search in your direction, and to find you quickly.
Please God, let me not only know you, but constantly feel you.
Help me no longer see you as my father, but my daddy.

Separately walking together.

Both walking on their journey.
Both pushing through their trials.
Both looking and hoping towards the future.
Waiting for the day their paths will meet and become one.
Everyday brings that moment closer.

But until then, both must find themselves and their purpose.
They must first realize who they are, before realizing who they are meant for.
Both will eventually come together to cover the old paths behind them.
The path they walk together will be the journey of a lifetime.
One that they worked so hard to reach.

The road to get there may not be an easy one.
But every curve and bump is preparing them for the day their paths cross.
There may never be shortcuts nor road signs along the road.
But there is a hand that is carrying them when they unable to walk.
And there is a voice guiding them through every uncertain moment.

That hand will push them in the right direction when they are unsure of where to go.
That voice will comfort them when they are losing focus and hope.
Yet the two are still breaking on the outside from their tough journey.
But each of their torn pieces, when brought together, will fit like a set and make them whole again.
And when they're ready for that special day, they will find each other face to face.

♥

L-O-V-E

What is love? First there's the unconditional love of our God that nothing can ever come between. But are we capable of showing that same exact love to the people in our life? I think the definition and status of "love" is changing. It's being minimized and the standard is becoming lower. Kids can grow up being told how much they are loved. But when what they see isn't genuine love, they are decieved into thinking love is something else. Basically, if someone hasn't felt the genuine love; they don't know how to truely show it. Thats why as a generation we have to take the love we know will never leave our side; and breath it. We have to consume all we can of God's love and live off of it. Because if we don't, we can lose the outward appearance of the most important concept in living a fulfilled life. So what is love? In my opinion, love is a gift to give and a choice to recieve.